Living with OCD (no.20)

With anxiety, come sleep problems.

Since I was a little girl I have been gnashing (a.k.a. grinding my teeth during sleep). And this has continued in my adult life and through the last two years of being diagnosed with OCD, and life happening along with its problems.

Plus, there are nights that I sleep like I was the Cthulu; I can imagine myself turning around and flapping my hands and feet like they were tentacles; at least it seems like Cthulu was sleeping on my bed when I wake up, sheets crumbled, the pillows in a very different position than the one they were when I fell to sleep, and… the jaw ache and possible headache or migraine!

Yeah, when your sleep is filled with anxiety, you can feel it the next morning!

Your jaw hurts, and maybe your teeth as well. A headache or a migraine might have appeared, and there’s a mess in your mind from the anxiety dreams and nightmares. Perfect combo! And some days, you might wake up more tired than when you went to sleep…!

Well, the solutions I have found for all these are massaging my jaw and head basically, maybe take a painkiller before the headache becomes stronger, and trying to relax as soon as I wake up (having a slow morning if possible). And all these work most of the times!

Until, the next time….! When all happen all over again….!

Life, art & handmade (no.1)

A new series of posts!

Usually, I prefer adding to my text-posts beautiful photos found on, but for this series, I’m going to use only my work.

And this is because this series pf posts is about the everyday life of an artist/jewelry maker/crafter, trying to make it. Details, thoughts, processes, feelings (well, there are plenty of them sometimes), etc, etc.

I’m a multitasker/multiartist, I use many mediums: photography, digital collage, jewelry, drawing, collage, and a few more. No, getting closer to 30 I don’t make ends meet from my art yet, but not giving up!

So, in the posts coming, I will write about what I have experienced so far and all the things that I would like to have read about making art and handmade objects.


Fighting yourself

How much of your life have you spent fighting your own skin?

Fighting your mind? What you are? What you feel?

I have probably spent months, if not years.

Until I reached my breaking point.

And until life happened and it worked as a reminder that we usually think that we’re here for an eternity, but in reality, we’re only here for a limited time.

So, why fighting the body we live in and all that we are?

Living with OCD (no.19)

This one is about setbacks.

So, having a mental health issue, an anxiety disorder, maybe OCD (like me) is always difficult. In the best case scenario you manage to have it under control and live with it in peace.

But an anxiety disorder goes hand in hand with life. And life can give you triggers (more than the “casual” ones of everyday). A tougher period of time maybe. Some challenges coming all together. Or maybe memories and anniversaries (or both combined, one hell of a combo that is!).

So, even if you have your anxiety disorder under control, there can be some setbacks!

It might be a compulsion that was gone for a long time. Or a more “messy/busy” mind. Or maybe it can get harder to overcome everyday triggers (because when you’re living with OCD you do have the triggers, actually lots of them, during the day, but you know how to get over/past them).

The basic thing you do in this is to stay cool. You and your mind are going to figure things out. And then, think about what causes the setback and the “new” triggers (you might need to talk to your therapist about them too, it would be a good idea). Oh, and remind yourself that this whole setback thing is only temporary, you have done so much work and there’s no way you’re going back.

Then, try not to pressure yourself too much. Do the most important things and don’t do too many during the day. Give yourself (and your mind basically) room to breathe…!

And keep tabs on how you’re doing.

As I said, it’s only temporary. The ups and down are like your heartbeat, and they mean you’re alive and living life!