Health first (a diary post)

My everyday life is quite full usually: I have my two handmade jewelry brands (@daily_art_by_angelina & @psychotrinkets) , my art (@drawing_tales), my photography (@a_mavrogianni_photography), my home/ art studio that always needs something done, my – practically fresh- significant other (we don’t live together, but still there’s quite some time devoted to him), my grandma and her second husband next door to me who are both in their mid 80s and have things that have to be done for them. Plus, I live everyday with my OCD in the background. And for the past 4 months I have stopped (the proper way) my medication which I have been taking, for my OCD, for almost 3 years.

A couple weeks ago I made a decision: to try to chill more and focus on my mental health. Just for the tough period of going off the meds (my sweet little brain has to re-adjust, but until then it shows no particular mercy). A wise decision to focus on my mental health.

I didn’t turn off everything, but I try to do less, so I have time to relax and take care of myself more.

I am a control freak, a multitasker that feels like I’m doing something wrong when I’m not doing something 24/7. But, I realized that I had to somehow take some time off, so I can feel better again, after going off my meds. But, still balancing things.

  • Posting less on social media (main way to promote my work my work).
  • Creating/working less (so, I have a less strict schedule, and more time to relax).
  • Not pressuring myself to do a lot of things during the day.
  • Trying to keep up with my relationships (but not doing so much that I will feel pressured).
  • Doing… nothing (I never do “nothing”, I practically can’t, but I realized that my kind of “doing nothing” is to chill out, do the things that feel good, go through YouTube or Pinterest, not saying to myself “you have to do this and that”, chiiiill; it’s so soothing and relaxing during this tough period).
  • Giving some responsibilities (grandma related) to other members of my family, taking a break for a while from them.
  • Taking a break from things that put too much pressure on me.

In the meanwhile, life happens, and it’s not always easy to keep up with my decision. But, having set the goal to focus on my mental health is important. Each single day, I try to care of myself, my emotions, my mood, and not let go (keep working towards the better days that are going to come). And some days (who am I kidding, most days), it’s pretty difficult, but the bottom line is loving myself and showing myself this love and care.

The world (and everything) will be here even after this tough period ends!

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All my life…!

As it turns out, all my life I’ve been trying to control everything, my life, situations, relationships, my feelings. In a way, I was saying to myself what to feel. But I had control.

And now, I’m working towards a life without OCD (aka control issues big time 😄) and I’m letting go of control. Kind of a control freak in recovery.

It’s tough, requires so much energy/work/determination/discipline, but it’s totally worth it. The results don’t show immediately. It takes time.

And one of the worst things to set free it’s the feelings. It creates such a wobbly sensation. The positive feelings are great, but then there are the negative ones that make me feel unconfortable. And they don’t go away so easily some times.

But as I said, it takes a lot of work amd it’s worth it.

Girl learning how to live the best way possible here!

Are you an overthinker?

If you are, trust me I understand!

Overthinking and an avalanche of feelings have accompanied me my whole life.

And I’ve been told many many times that I shouldn’t analyze so much, that I shouldn’t be so sensitive. I should think less, I should feel less, because life is going to be hard for me. And I believed them, and I hated my mind for overthinking things, and I tried to feel less and control my feelings. I managed to do so, until I didn’t. Or maybe these two happened in the same time.

But, as a person that has been through hard times and gloriously survived them, I tell you that you should accept yourself, who you are and not who you’d like to be. Accept your traits and love them. They are what makes you…you!

After a lot of work with myself I know I do. I can’t avoid overthinking, but I’m making it my friend, we work together to create, and to go through life in the best way possible!

And the feelings, oh the feelings…! It can get overwhelming at times, but it’s kind of amazing to feel so many things and so much, only that you have to learn to handle them! (Well, you can always ask for help and you can always do art as well, which helps a lot).

So here I am, accepting the power that a sensitive mind of overthinking gives you! And I wish everyone else would do it too! More comfortable people in their skin, more happiness!

Your mind is strong. And a place full of variety. Your mind is full of ideas amd stories amd images, and going against them it will probably only do you harm.

And your feelings are bouquets of flowers, different colors, different scents. And other times are radars, your mind uses them to catch things that your conscience maybe can’t.

Love and trust them. After all you’re going to spend a whole life, every moment of it together!

Fighting yourself

How much of your life have you spent fighting your own skin?

Fighting your mind? What you are? What you feel?

I have probably spent months, if not years.

Until I reached my breaking point.

And until life happened and it worked as a reminder that we usually think that we’re here for an eternity, but in reality, we’re only here for a limited time.

So, why fighting the body we live in and all that we are?